My mind was so blank. So empty. There’s nothing running on my head.
Where are all the thoughts? Where are all the love? Where to get back all the feelings?
Feel like lacking of something in my life. I just couldn’t tell what is that.
Maybe i was just looking for the feeling of…….
Falling out of Love!!!
T. The Crazy
im not right already..
even listening to songs also making me feel like dying..
there are songs..many songs..
which will make me feel like flying..
the feeling is like leaving the world peacefully..
im ready to die..
heart in me doesnt belong to me anymore..
i have no feel twds it anymore..
insecurity..
im so cold so cold now..
can gimme some warmth?
T. The Cold
I feel so lost suddenly!
I have no sense of direction at all.
I feel like killing myself.
I start hating myself.
Daily routine is just like a piece of shit.
Troubles nv stopped.
All I ever think of is u.
I wish someone can escape with me.
I neva want things to b da same.
I'm so LIFELESS!!!!
I know tat ppl may think tat I nv know how to satisfy.
But da feeling is flowing up n is killing me.
I feel suffocating n drowning.
Really.
I need someone to understd me.
No one. No one.
I'm just very lost very lost.
Living blindly in this colourful world.
Nv know how to colorize my world.
I shall live in my mysterious dreamland like I nv had a chance to wake up.
IM SO LAME!!!
A note to Mo before I commit suicide.
I feel so down. lame. weak. ill.
U’re alwiz my best lame-mate ever. ♥
All I ever think of is really YOU. Only you.
T. The Suicidal
AM I SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY?
ALL I EVER WANTED
IT COMES WITH A PRICE.
Opportunity costs I’d say.
I will neva satisfied with what I had. Why?
My sky just suddenly turns grey.
T. The Absolute
AGAIN…I DESTROYED STH.
This time 1 desktop being burst by ME.
An actuators certified to be DEAD.
Another time of almost die scene. LMFAO.
Not me only. But with AJ. Great & Beautiful SPARKS in front us with a BOOM like firecrackers to celebrate our DEATH.
But im still alive here typing all these shits out. LOL.
Give no attempt on playing electricity in future. RA~~ Electric Shock KILL.
Remarks: Cheryl & AJ think that Tira - Destroy almost everything she try to clean or touch (in a good faith).
Alwiz do good but end up bad huh.
T. The Destroyer
He is a murderer as he kills loneliness.
He killed me but I neva died. See how I survived.
Not being prioritized as I have Rilakkuma. ✖
T. The Kun
How can I meet you again?
Out of 4.99 million of ppl, where and how to find you?
Perhaps I’m not gonna see you again in my lifetime..
If my coin could help, I would wish to see you once again.
You know you love me. And I will tell u da same.
And who am I? That’s one secret I’ll never tell. XOXO. – Gossip Girl
Bitches just don’t happen, they are made.
No time for sex.
T. The Workaholic
It’s hard to live alone
It’s hard to love someone
It’s hard when falling out of love
But the hardest part is to...
Admit that you have fallen in love with someone you didn’t meant to love from the start
Every night when I looked at myself
I feel the loneliness that I barely can’t express
I smile in front of ppl with pains inside my heart
I cry in shower wishing to wash away my pains
I feel the warmth between my face and pillow every night before I even knew I was crying
They are teardrops...for real
Realizing myself love crying. Am I love to cry or just way too pain for me to bear???
Perhaps I have to Band-Aid my fragile heart now...
T. The Tears Waster
Sometimes my heart very ache..
Sometimes my head very ache..
Sometimes my stomach very ache..
I wish I could stop my heart from pounding..
…stop…until I leave…until I truly leave…
Because everytime my heart pounds, the aches are eating me.
Especially my HEART..
Am I about to die? Or I’m getting closer to the hell?
Can someone pull me out from getting closer to there?
I’m suffocating..like being in a small dark room..with no oxygen..
I need someone to save me now..
Bring me out from the dark room…please..i beg you!!!
Wish The Killers can save me.
T. The Patient
Careen serving ME!! :]
No plz...Dont send me home!
Salted Fish 1, 2, 3...Bili-Bala..U all have to leave me now..
How many being Killed in total?
I just know I'm half dead and I'm aware that I'm dying.
18th is always a good day. Waiting...
T.The Killer
过份!! 过份!! 觉得自己很过份!! 觉得我们有点踩过界...
有问题!! 有问题!! 需赶快补救...
不是有人提起, 我都没发现自己的离谱...
我是应该被讨厌的...
醒吧!!! RA...
How come the words and the sentence in my mind can be stolen by somebody?
How can the person able to write and does written out the same whole sentence as what's in my mind?
Whatsoever, I'm sure is not for me!
19th
Temporarily killed 37.
Killed 42 at last. 42x440ml = 18,480ml (18.48litres)
Omfg. Crazy. Me 3litres at least.
Vomited like nobody's business.
Swear. No more beers. Ur making me sick.
Day spoiled.
T. The Drunk Kid
This is how I do it when ppl were all asleep.
Da face of having insomnia for weekss.
Let's weed it out.
Anyone wanna booze with me?
T. The Random Walker
Problems and Troubles just keep finding me...
Problems and Troubles like me much, they just wanna surround me for no reason..like I owed them..
I cant avoid..
I cant escape..
I was being hated..
I was being blamed..
Now they are queuing and waiting for me to settle /calm them...
So sick So sick..So sick of no one can help me..
What am I suppose to do?
I have so much to do..I have to carry on...
Trust me...I nv tot of all these are hurting u..I'm real sorry..There are misunderstandings that I should tell..
There's nothing I can say and nothing I can do now..Let's see how da thing goes....okie?
Take care...friend ^^
T. The Ghost
Goodnight, Travel Well
The Killers
In a fairy tale, it happens fast.
Prince Charming and Cinderella spotted each other, sparks fly, and a few pages later they are already living happily ever after.
The senses rule in the real world, too.
In evolutionary terms, we're drawn to the beautiful, the fertile and the strong.
But what if Prince Charming lives in a land far, far away???
This is the question!!!
3years..It's a total of 3years I've been struggling with a jerk.
Now, I finally can convince myself that he is a player. He is a real playboy. He is not sincere to me..not true to me..not real to me.
How do I convince myself actually? Oh Gosh..Never thought that.. The best friend of the jerk even thought that he is a player and agreed that the jerk is not loyal to his other half (referring to me). The wondering part is, he was wondering why Tira is so freaking in love with the jerk!!
Many advised me that please don't ever trust or give chance to this jerk again. From the past, to whoever know me, I do gave chance to him..not once, not twice.......is hell lots!!
Actually it seems like I am letting myself to be fooled by the jerk repeatedly. But feelings kinda things are really hard to explain and tell. No one will understand why would I do so.
At least, something for me to be happy about is..I am loyal to love. I'm sincere in loving the jerk for the past. I don't betray him. I don't feel regret at all.
PEACE~
这两天总觉得怪怪的...从跌摩多....下楼梯跌倒....爸爸晕倒....就觉得会有不好的事即将发生...
于是, 在回家的路上都在心里念着佛号...很担心会有事发生!!!
但是, 不幸的......坏事还是发生了......
整条高速公路上, 都驾着 60km/hour, wiper 开到最快的speed, 距离前面的车超远, 因为雨实在太大了....根本就看不见前方.....
驾着....驾着....看见前面有brake灯（距离还蛮远的车踩brake）, 于是我也跟着踩brake....因为知道下雨天必须保持安全距离, 也曾试过失控撞上别辆车! 当踩brake的时候, 发现它失灵了....车竟然没慢下...心慌了....只知道当下应狠踩...
说时慢那时快, 我的车从 middle lane 冲出 fast lane, 在手上的 steering 还是直的....接着, 车身就贴着 divider 磨着去（长达3秒吧）, 直到我把 brake 踩尽....车子完全失控, 在 middle & fast lane 之间打转.......... 打转着..........................................................
心想, 这次我死定了....我可能回不了家....我不想死....我不想....我还有很多东西还没做....还不想离开这世界....我很怕..Please! Please! 不要有车来......
突然, 圈也转完了........竟然没有半辆车撞上我......我三魂不见了七魄...谢神佛保佑...继续开车...全身发抖...然后，就开始失控的哭了!! 幸好有好友 kimo & YY 的安抚, 我才能回到自己的家.
在这生死边缘, 我才意识到自己有多么想活.....以后我都不会再想 "不如死掉算了,一了百了".....在这一刻, 我还是很怕很怕.....
Taken b4 getting out from sungai besi toll.
