BE WITH ME TIL END.

I feel so lost suddenly!
I have no sense of direction at all.
I feel like killing myself.
I start hating myself.
Daily routine is just like a piece of shit.
Troubles nv stopped.
All I ever think of is u.
I wish someone can escape with me.
I neva want things to b da same.
I'm so LIFELESS!!!!
I know tat ppl may think tat I nv know how to satisfy.
But da feeling is flowing up n is killing me.
I feel suffocating n drowning.
Really.
I need someone to understd me.
No one. No one.
I'm just very lost very lost.
Living blindly in this colourful world.
Nv know how to colorize my world.
I shall live in my mysterious dreamland like I nv had a chance to wake up.
IM SO LAME!!!

 

A note to Mo before I commit suicide.

I feel so down. lame. weak. ill.

U’re  alwiz my best lame-mate ever. ♥

All I ever think of is really YOU. Only you.

T. The Suicidal

ALL TIME LOW

AM I SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY?

 

ALL I EVER WANTED

IT COMES WITH A PRICE.

 

 

Opportunity costs I’d say.

I will neva satisfied with what I had. Why?

My sky just suddenly turns grey.

T. The Absolute

REOCCURENCE OF MY EMO ATTITUDE

 

SPELL “LOVE” TO ME

Lotza thoughts flowing from my mind now.

I dont care if it hurts. I just want a perfect soul. I won’t give up. I hope.

I wanna know how’s da cigarette tastes like.

I wanna know how’s da wound bleeds like.

I wanna know how’s da love feels like.

And, I wanna know why would there be heart-ache feeling.

T. The Smoker-Going-To-Be

I’M LOST!!

I’M SO LOST!!!!!

PEACE OF MIND. PLEASE. THX.

Problems and Troubles just keep finding me...

Problems and Troubles like me much, they just wanna surround me for no reason..like I owed them..

I cant avoid..

I cant escape..

I was being hated..

I was being blamed..

Now they are queuing and waiting for me to settle /calm them...

So sick So sick..So sick of no one can help me..

What am I suppose to do?

I have so much to do..I have to carry on...

Trust me...I nv tot of all these are hurting u..I'm real sorry..There are misunderstandings that I should tell..

There's nothing I can say and nothing I can do now..Let's see how da thing goes....okie?

Take care...friend ^^

 

T. The Ghost

Goodnight, Travel Well

The Killers

TRUTH REVEALED

3years..It's a total of 3years I've been struggling with a jerk.

Now, I finally can convince myself that he is a player. He is a real playboy. He is not sincere to me..not true to me..not real to me.

How do I convince myself actually? Oh Gosh..Never thought that.. The best friend of the jerk even thought that he is a player and agreed that the jerk is not loyal to his other half (referring to me). The wondering part is, he was wondering why Tira is so freaking in love with the jerk!!

Many advised me that please don't ever trust or give chance to this jerk again. From the past, to whoever know me, I do gave chance to him..not once, not twice.......is hell lots!!

Actually it seems like I am letting myself to be fooled by the jerk repeatedly. But feelings kinda things are really hard to explain and tell. No one will understand why would I do so.

At least, something for me to be happy about is..I am loyal to love. I'm sincere in loving the jerk for the past. I don't betray him. I don't feel regret at all.

PEACE~