It’s quiet and dark now. I’m bare.
Not lonely. But cold.
The scene started to swirl..and fading.
The stars cannot wait any longer.
They are out of sight.
Feel like it’s over now.
Keep walking, and walking…
Destination never gets closer.
Am still living in the city of lust.
I’m gonna say goodbye tonight.
I’ll meet you at the cemetery.
And you will still find me in the dark.
Dark, cold and bare.
Stars out and swirl over me.
Pls, Never say goodnight to my lust.
T. The Complex
im not right already..
even listening to songs also making me feel like dying..
there are songs..many songs..
which will make me feel like flying..
the feeling is like leaving the world peacefully..
im ready to die..
heart in me doesnt belong to me anymore..
i have no feel twds it anymore..
insecurity..
im so cold so cold now..
can gimme some warmth?
T. The Cold
I feel so lost suddenly!
I have no sense of direction at all.
I feel like killing myself.
I start hating myself.
Daily routine is just like a piece of shit.
Troubles nv stopped.
All I ever think of is u.
I wish someone can escape with me.
I neva want things to b da same.
I'm so LIFELESS!!!!
I know tat ppl may think tat I nv know how to satisfy.
But da feeling is flowing up n is killing me.
I feel suffocating n drowning.
Really.
I need someone to understd me.
No one. No one.
I'm just very lost very lost.
Living blindly in this colourful world.
Nv know how to colorize my world.
I shall live in my mysterious dreamland like I nv had a chance to wake up.
IM SO LAME!!!
A note to Mo before I commit suicide.
I feel so down. lame. weak. ill.
U’re alwiz my best lame-mate ever. ♥
All I ever think of is really YOU. Only you.
T. The Suicidal
AM I SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY?
ALL I EVER WANTED
IT COMES WITH A PRICE.
Opportunity costs I’d say.
I will neva satisfied with what I had. Why?
My sky just suddenly turns grey.
T. The Absolute
Lotza thoughts flowing from my mind now.
I dont care if it hurts. I just want a perfect soul. I won’t give up. I hope.
I wanna know how’s da cigarette tastes like.
I wanna know how’s da wound bleeds like.
I wanna know how’s da love feels like.
And, I wanna know why would there be heart-ache feeling.
T. The Smoker-Going-To-Be
At this moment, Only this moment,
I love nobody.
Just a thought.
Pissed Off.
T. The Only One
I’m gonna let go of myself..
I’ll be letting myself drowning in the sea..
No one will ever see me shedding a single tear..
As it will be dissolved along with the salt water..
The feeling of sinking to da deepest part of sea..
The feeling of dancing in the sea..
Are all appearing in my mind now..
Before the last breath I can take..
I will still remember I loved u so much..
These are the moments I’ll remember all my life..
T. The Paranoid
It’s hard to live alone
It’s hard to love someone
It’s hard when falling out of love
But the hardest part is to...
Admit that you have fallen in love with someone you didn’t meant to love from the start
Every night when I looked at myself
I feel the loneliness that I barely can’t express
I smile in front of ppl with pains inside my heart
I cry in shower wishing to wash away my pains
I feel the warmth between my face and pillow every night before I even knew I was crying
They are teardrops...for real
Realizing myself love crying. Am I love to cry or just way too pain for me to bear???
Perhaps I have to Band-Aid my fragile heart now...
T. The Tears Waster
Sometimes my heart very ache..
Sometimes my head very ache..
Sometimes my stomach very ache..
I wish I could stop my heart from pounding..
…stop…until I leave…until I truly leave…
Because everytime my heart pounds, the aches are eating me.
Especially my HEART..
Am I about to die? Or I’m getting closer to the hell?
Can someone pull me out from getting closer to there?
I’m suffocating..like being in a small dark room..with no oxygen..
I need someone to save me now..
Bring me out from the dark room…please..i beg you!!!
Wish The Killers can save me.
T. The Patient
How can I put this I I I
I'm an independent woman, I...
I've been crying like a child
I just wanted you to know the person that I am
More than any other your fans
I would love you for a thousand years
Yours truly
I ain't gonna play it cool
Let me tell you I've tried that already
Every day, and every night, your words
Ring through me
Who am I trying to fool, honey I've been living on my own like Freddy
But I'm still a woman, baby tell me how
How could I ever love another?
How could you don't remember?
God knows I'd give anything
For just one more night together
Today I'll miss you more than ever
How could you say you don't remember?
This one's for the happiness I'll be wishing you forever
It's just another Friday night
For you and your accessory
And there you are before my eyes
Two hours and for fifteen minutes you are here
I don't wanna scream lest I should tear
A whisper in the darkness disappears
Sincerely
We should get back on the road
Like Simon and Garfunkel
Let's get married
You were all the shelter that I need above me
Who am I trying to fool
Honey I've got your ringtone on my Blackberry
And I won't give a damn if only I knew how
How could I ever love another?
How could you don't remember?
God knows I'd give anything
For just one more night together
Today I'll miss you more than ever
How could you say you don't remember?
This one's for the happiness I'll be wishing you forever
You got me crying like a child
Ain't no need for me to lie
A hundred JPEG files fillin' up my hard drive
You got me crying like a child
And the crowd is going wild
This one, this is the one
Come on and give it up
I just feeling wanna cry.
Wanna cry out loud like a child.
Please allow me to do so.
T. The Child
Last Night on Earth by Green Day
Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis
You And Me by Lifehouse
Was like inspired by songs.
Actually is camera checking.
Nostalgia. I mean it.
U should have been granted a better life.
What could I do? Go as far as I can.
T. The Concealed
Sometimes I'd rather be naked in front of u and let u see the real me.
"Ur nth one, just emo sometimes"
The messiest time of my life. I will nv allow my desk to be such a mess, but dunno y this happened now. This is real.
I find myself so lost.
Trying to do good but all turned out a mess.
Where's my soulmates?
I needa talk to somebody. Particularly someone knows my soul.
T. The Nude
无意中听到这首歌, 还记得第一次听这首歌时我还很小, 真的很有FEEL. 还记得叔叔是有多么的欣赏张学友....
这首歌的音乐很好听,有回到古代的感觉. 现代的歌曲真的很难找回这种音乐的感觉.
什么都不想了, 最重要当下开心. 或许十年后的今天, 看回这一刻, 还能记得自己是多么的享受, 多么的开心.
Thanks NEKO MIAO. U woke me up.
T. The Brand New T
Aint wanna do and think anything right now
Keep flying Keep floating Keep dreaming
Dont gimme answers
I'll find a destination and stop thr
I'll make sure I get my feet on the ground at last
I'm gonna make love today. Just for today.
T. The Love Maker
This is how I do it when ppl were all asleep.
Da face of having insomnia for weekss.
Let's weed it out.
Anyone wanna booze with me?
T. The Random Walker
I'm missing the time.........................................................
When I was driving alone in the late night..
Listening to the Hed Kandi Winter Chill loudly..
Switching off the air-cond and cellphone..
Enjoying the gentle breeze over my face..
Looking at the city lights on the street..
Seeing cars passing me by..
Driving with no destination..
Letting myself floating..
Cleaning out my minds..
Throwing all behind my back..
Screaming in my heart..
Enjoying the moments so high..
Not really imaginations. I can feel it.
Can't stop myself from being distracted when too concentrating on.
Can't wait to feel the moments.
T. The Escapist
别人总觉得我很奇怪，觉得我是个怪脚; 我也总觉得别人怪怪的.那我常常会想,到底是我奇怪还是他们奇怪呢?
大部份的人都觉得,我的想法很偏激,很极端,我绝不会为自认为是对的事情而低头.可说我是固执或执著, 总觉得既然自己的立场是对的话,为什么要让步? 再说,我也经常觉得自己是对的. 结果, 总是与他人闹翻. 与男友闹翻简直是家常便饭. 幸好我也只得罪过林俊杰罢了! 没了, 经已回到乏味缺爱的日子了.
我寂寞, 就感觉从未好好的谈过恋爱. 搞到现在这个地步, 也应该是自取, 就因为我的怪... 随着日子, 我一天一天的老去, 价值也天天地在滑落. 我已是一个"卖剩蔗". 还有谁会买呢? 当然, 我绝不是那些把感情当儿戏的人, 也不浪费他人的时间.
说浪费时间, 我最对不起林先生, 因为受伤害的那个已不能像以前那样的去爱了, 陆陆续续, 分分合合, 都多年了, 痛从来就未彻底离去!! 我相信他也尽力弥补了. 就怪我奇怪吧!!
是否是时候改改自己的怪脾气怪性格了呢? 相信不会有人会喜欢怪怪的人! 重点!! 要怎样改呢? 从何? 思考着......................................
个人觉得, 生活里有爱, 日子灿烂多!!
我拥有很多爱...无限的父爱母爱...公公婆婆的疼爱...弟妹的爱...知心朋友的爱...亲戚的爱...很多很多...也少不了他的爱...永远不会忘记! <3
Endnote:
林俊杰不是歌星.
不好的我必要消失.
寻找更多的爱.
Love Me Do - Beatles.
No Backstab plz, Fakers.
