LONELINESS ATTACKED

I hate this kinda feelings!!

I talked to the air..

I talked to the computer..

I talked to the mirror..

I talked to no one..

I am so lonely..

I am learning to be solo..will try..will try..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY..DADDY!!

I have a lot to wish but I just dunno how.

At the end, I just said a "happy birthday lorr...pa"

I am so far from my dad..I wanna be sweet..tell him how much I love him. My mouth was just too hard to open. My voice was just too hard to come out.

My daddy is da most nice person in da world ever & ever. No one can replace him. He is the only one who loves me n sayang me da most. I want him to stay healthy alwiz..I want him to take care of himself and mommy well..I want him to be 长命百岁..I want him to be with us forever & ever. I just wish my brother & sister wont keep make my daddy angry d..My papa is already da most best & responsible daddy in da world. I dowan to see him feel disappointed on his children.

I wanna say..I really love my daddy!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY..TIRA!!

With my loved ones~~~~~

Thought it would be SPECIAL..

No surprises. Nth special happened.

31.10.2008 Gone like that...with the coming of...

01.11.2008

UNFORGETTABLE

Da day i feel pekchek da most.

A Note to KIMO:

Kimo..i didn't mean to mad at u. Sorry.I know i've made u angry once where u just turned and went away from me. I didn't mean it. Really. There are too many things caused me such. Initially, thought it would be a wonderful day but then...everything being ruined.

TODAY

猫也喂了 衣服洗了 药也吃了 心又痛了 没人问

有没有可能 先分开一阵

心慢慢冰冷 我试着微笑

我拉不住伤心往回忆的路上奔跑

可怜的是 我还以为爱只有 快乐的成份~~

6 Days 5 Nights AMA to Northern

Day 1

Yam-Yam (Yummy) Rice

Note:

Night. We visited FIREFLIES.

Killed few. Poor little weak fire.

Day 2

The only jail which offers 酒！

Jailed In

Octo-pupu

Back to MALAYA

Note:

NIGHTMARED of da WAR.

Day 3

Last kiss before i eat YOU.

Note:

Da most delicious & expensive food of da trip.

Fortunately no needa pay.

So lucky to have Careen as friend. She worked 3days for this meal.

Day 4

To Langkawi Island.

Scream out Loud, Tira.

So called Black Sand Beach. Where's Black Sand?

Jump to da happiness

As da Yolk falls to da bottom

U're not Alone!

Note:

230 chocolates. 200 liquors.

They drank til red.

I was attacked by mosquitoes til red.

Day 5

Traveled from the northest to ipoh.

Tired to da max.

Exhausted to da highest.

Watched da story-less mamma mia.

Goodnite. Finally slept tight.

Day 6

Last Day

Note:

250 for whole. We are considered within.

Careen & I may get trapped by few speed traps.

Both of us may beyond.

END

百忍成“静”[篇]

明天起，我就凡事都得忍..忍..忍!! 既不喜欢,都得静静不作声!!

忍既是静;静既是忍.

我不想再对任何人好了.不想再为别人想了.想来想去，都是没结果的.被别人怀疑的感觉真的很不好受.心一直闷着，即使已经不想参与了，也不敢作声.因为他们都"很大" ，我身为"小的"，都得听他们的意见.我的意见就都被"banned"完.

你们对我们的疑心，已被我们感觉与察觉了.我很失望，很down!!!从来就没想过要从中赚取，请给与一点信任，好吗??? 不放弃这计划是因为怕让他们临时感到失望.我都在为这大家着想.请不要再怀疑了~~~

note: PAPER MODE gotta be turned off

BUDGET.BUDGET & BUDGET!!!

I'm fucking frustrated!!

Think for every members, make good for everybody, get rejected!!

Remember, main purpose & target is spend within BUDGET!!!

No overspending plz......

Arghhhhhh~~~~

读书.真的很累[篇]

还有一科，这个学期的考试就圆满结束了.每当考试的时期，我的头就疼得不得了.好压力.甚至三番四次想从我的房间里的窗口跳下去.好寂寞.在这段时期里都是冷的..自己一个人锁在房里闭关..好像都与外界隔离.都是经常挨饿的..因为就是一个字"懒"..懒得去打包食物..懒得去煮泡面..懒得离开自己的房间.不过最懒的还是....读着一些自己不喜欢读的书!!这些书又多字，又没图案，又没颜色，又不精彩，又没故事性，又没高潮..唉~~真的是DULL到飞起!!

对自己也越来越没信心了.记忆力也变差了.这边进了,那边就出.回答考卷时完全不在状况里.这个学期真的烂到不行!没办法原谅自己的笨与迟钝.再也不想跟书本与笔记纠缠下去了，因为我都很讨厌它们!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

原来我.一点也不开心[篇]

开始厌倦每天重复的日子， 周遭的事物，周围的人。

开始找不回自己了，以前的我去了那里？

我到底在寻找些什么。。。

找不回那些满足感，找不回那种成就感。

我在盲目的过日子，我找不到去向与出路。

我再也回不去了。。

我再也不会开心了。。

我不再是我！!

嘴.肿[篇]

嘴唇已经肿了好多天。超辛苦的。

超讨厌绿茶的。喝了两口却肿了一星期。

上唇肿得像长了胡须。

竟然有人想跟我拍照因觉得我好像胡须佬。

竟然有人叫我 tira-misai。

走在街上的人都会多看我几眼 （都aim在嘴）。

好烦啊！这讨厌的东西已经缠了我 4年。

到底它几时才会好呢？

到底有什么药能医好它呢？

短暂的.生命

3rd, August
今早收到个坏消息！
芳的爸爸往生了！
心。痛了~
来得太突然了~
生命。就如此脆弱吗?
生命。真的如此短暂吗？


真的很怕很怕~
很担心我所爱的家人与朋友, 会突然离开我..
不希望有这天的来临..


想起我爷爷离开我们时..
家人让爷爷在医院安乐死..我却被骗回家睡觉..
一觉醒来, 爷爷已经永永远远离开了我们..
只剩下爷爷冷冰冰的身体..
只剩下我们的回忆~
记得最后一次接触, 就是在爷爷病床旁, 他摸了摸我的头, 要我不哭..
就这样..... 我再也没机会让爷爷疼了!
“爷爷..我真的好想念你”


珍惜身边的人. 因生命是短暂的.
如果没有来世. 更应该珍惜今世.


芳爸....希望你在天国得到安息

一个熟悉的陌生人

2nd, August
真的很不懂...这个我曾经..很熟悉的..他..心在想什么..
有了个新女友, 还再想其他人吗?
这对谁..都太不公平了..


我绝对不能让你影响我..
不能让你干涉我现在的生活..
不能让我的心, 再有机会被你弄碎..


祝永远幸福

BefoRe ThE End oF ....

29th, July

Sth extraordinary happened to me.

I think I am..

I'm Gonna Die. I'm Gonna Die. I'm Gonna Die.

26th, July

***Chase. Run. Pure. High. ***

25th, July

Imagining we were in da water pool..performing water ballet!

No sense
Huge Butt..Sial~

19th & 20th, July

*** Superb. Wonderful. Budgeted***